Dear God ( 4th Letter)

Dear God,

I know I ask for a lot, and I know that everything is done on your time. But God, I need a job badly. I know we are not supposed to concentrate on worldly things but Lord I need a job. There is so much stress on my husband and he works so hard to stay afloat. It makes me sad to see him come home from a minimum 11 hour work day and just be so mentally and physically exhausting. God I have been searching, and interviewing, and doing everything I can for a solid 5 months.

What am I doing wrong? Do I need to go back to my roots and get on my knees rather than talking to you out loud. Do you want me to fast, because if that is what it would take I will do it. If you want me to make the time and go to church and worship like I used to I will. God the issue is I have no clue what it is that you want me to do? Maybe I should be doing all of these things. Maybe It's just Satan trying my faith. Please lord help me. I know we are not supposed to tempt God, or ask you to give us a sign. But man, I just wish there was some way I would know that I am heading in the right direction, someway I know that I am doing what you want me to.

I know you know what is in my future even though it is completely unknown to me. I know that no psychic hot line or horoscope will tell me what's ahead or what I need to be doing. I know that I am supposed to leave all my fears and worries with you God. I am supposed to leave it at the alter and just pray that you do what you do best. But man oh man, I think that is the hardest thing I have ever had to do.